Wheeew...

What a month, what a week, what a day...It's supposed to be the other order...but serioulsy...it goes in that order...This month...HECTIC...with the packing and the moving and the unpacking and the getting ready for the party...and then this past week with the party planning focus...and then today with the rushing around at lunch because I shouldn't leave for too long and the waiting to finish work so I can get home and set up the party and.....

I should take a deep breath and relax...but I know I can't.

I'm in full caffeine-after-noon mode. I've been buzzing all week...well, all month...haven't really had a chance to myself to catch my breath...Well, not actually that's a lie...I had a moment to catch my breath last Thursday night...and my breath was caught ;) That was VERY nice...I'd like another night like that...a little electric...

ANYWAYS...I totally digress :)

So, I'm in full babbling mode have been emailing Nerds all day (soon I will figure out how to turn words into links and can link Nerds's name to her blog...and if she's reading this...Please explain so I can do)...

So yes, as you can tell, my focus is definitely more than a little off today, and there was no drinking last night, so I can't blame it on that. However, I can't say the same for the rest of my office...everyone seems to be moving a bit slow today...so it's their fault (that time is moving slowly today...even for me).

It's 3pm...and I'm going slightly crazy, watching the clock...trying to figure out how I can waste more time online...surfing, who can I email and harrass, lol ;) Wow...talk about wasting time. How naughty of me...but come on...seriously. I bust my butt the rest of the week. I actually do. Seldom leaving my desk, never taking a real lunch. And Wednesday's, from start to finish Wednesday's I'm rushing and bustling and getting stuff done...and all that in order to be able to screw the pooch on Friday afternoons. I think it's worth it :)

Well tonight I have the party...lots of people have RSVPd...the boys, the girls, the co-workers...it should be fun, it could be chaos, it will be interesting to say the least. I am hoping that my place is big enough...if nothing else I've got a lot of places to sit...and I always think that's important...also there's the balcony, so I can throw people outside if it gets too crowded...but I'm not too worried...I'm just trying to picture 20 people in there though...Hmmm...If I put bums in all the seats...how many people would still be standing...3 on the couch, 1 on the chair, 6 on the regular chairs...so that's 10, 10 left standing...a couple of people could use the couch and chair arm rests...and 2 people could fit on either ends of the tv units...so there's another 4, only 6 left standing...and there's all those pillows so I could make room on the floor for those people...otherwise they could just have an orgy in my bed....*kidding*...except knowing my friends....no I'm kidding... ;) wishing maybe...no, shut up! ;)

Anyways...there will be lots of space...And food...and booze...I'm basing everything on 20 and I keep forgetting that...duh...I'll be there too... ;) But I've got 60 beers, and 6 bottles of wine...that should be MORE than enough. I'm hoping the crowds make their way through the beer faster than the wine...because I will drink the wine, but the beer...not so much. I also hope no one brings beer...because if they do, there won't be anywhere to put it...not too true though, because once I've laid out the food and drink areas my fridge will be empty again, except for the beer. :)

Okay...enough stressing...however, remember to buy ice...yes, Ice...shoot and there was something else I wanted to remember...oh well, it's gone... ;)

Look at the time fly when you're having fun...between typing this and doing piddly little things to make myself look busy I've managed to kill an hour...yay! I'll leave early, definitely...

Okay, I've just realized what I've been doing...talking to myself to kill time...*sigh*...I could be doing so many more productive things right now...like cutting fruit, and I could, really...sitting here at my desk on my new cheese board with my new knives...but I think that would be less acceptible than what I'm actually doing, although the fruit would be more productive...this is just completely wasteful...HOWEVER...it is emptying my brain of useless information before I try and socialize with my friends this evening...hopefully it will leave room in my head for more intelligent thoughts and conversations.

I wonder if I have time for a little nap...I wish I could cap nap... :( I can't, I get all grumpy and want to sleep more...but...hmmmmm? If I can make it home by 5...lie down for 20 minutes...then speed up my shower...no dawdling (or anything else ;))...put my hair in dry rollers and do the rest of the apartment stuff with my hair doing itself? Oh, but I wanted to clean first....? Okay if I get home REALLY early...and manage to get all the cleaning done quickly and that's all done by 5pm...MAYBE then I could have a little nap....

We'll have to wait and see...

Toothpicks...that's the other thing I wanted to pick up...fancy toothpicks...hmmmm? I wonder if the Hasty Market on the corner would have any....? I've got regular toothpicks...but I want fancy ones...Nerds says I've been stressing about the silliest things this week...like the serving dishes and the food I'm serving...and the cheese board...well this are hostessy things and my mom is great at them and has everything...and I've never done this before and I want to be good at it...

But who cares because my apartment looks AWESOME...it's a little piece of porno...it really is. :) *sigh*...and after tonight and the clean up tomorrow...it will be over and I can really just live in it. It's weird...having my own real place. I'm trying to figure out if I was every truly comfortable at the last place? It was mine, my own little space...but I think I always felt a little restless...like I didn't know quite what to do with myself there...I think this one is already better...but I'm not sure...I haven't had any time to really just be there. I've been stressing about getting everything done...and rightly so. AND it isn't completely finished yet, there's still the patio furniture that I need and to finish the organza on the bedroom ceiling...but other than $$$ those things won't take long at all. However, I'm thinking that they will both have to wait until after I get back from England...so like JUNE! Gasp...Where has all the money gone...?

Yup, I've been a spending fiend this month. I've blown through quite a bit of cash...and I've got to stop now...Slow it down a bit. Realize what I'm buying. I mean, I haven't bought too many stupid things ;) But there have been stupid things. But I've stopped worrying about cost, and that frightens me. I'm not spending all that extravagantly, but I'm slowly loosing the value of money, I can feel it slipping away from me. It is frightening having a large increase in money coming in. I'm glad that I have some saving methods already in place or else I'd be a lot worse than I am. Even now, I'm totally spoiling myself. I could be putting a lot more money down, and I'm not...so I've got to buck up and smarten up and focus a bit more (says the girl a couple weeks before she leaves for England...money will be blown there...)

Okay...enough of this...look at the babbling go...sorry guys, as you can tell...a little out of control, and it's all the fault of the caffeine, lack of work, Friday afternoon, long month and housewarming party...and I'm sure I could find some more excuses for my insanity too...but let's just leave it at that.

Thanks for ... well sticking around and reading everything if you've reached this point.